standstill

everything has come to a standstill.
i did lots of reflectg last night.
and honestly, i dunno wot the hell ive been doing with my life.
i noe my actions have hurt many.
my words have scarred many.
my insensitivity has affected all my frens who truly care abt me.
i dunno but i think it takes alot ot courage for a person to badmouth herself infronta all. honestly think im kinda bitchy with stuff and the way i do it.
as much as i want thgs to b simple, i simply make it even harder.
childish thinkgs and self centered feelgs tt ppl shld change the way they do thgs instead of me. but if im not gonna change either, how will thgs ever improve?
thank God im outta singapore dis sat.
i hope everyone's life changes fer the better.
its true ive hindered some of ur freedom and growth.
honestly, i felt pissed readg ur email. (u noe who u are)
but i began to reflect and i suddenly realised wot a MEAN gal i was.
how many ppl have tolerated my nonsense.
how many ppl have tried to pls me when i shld b the one pleasg them.
or the wayi interacted with ppl.
thr was jus this one big mistake in my attitude somewhr.
i had enough of i dont care and ppl shld accept me fer the way i am.
cos no matter how many times an individual says that, she'd nv change nor will she care or reflect on how she interacts with others.
she stays individualistic and feminist.
totally right abt herself in everyway when it is IN FACT WRONG
oh well, i guess i did the right thg today.
typg everythg down and jus readg thru.
i gain a better understandg of how to accept ppl and how to change so tt ppl can accept me.
who am i u might say?
the face in the mirror.